忐忑不安...
happy teachers` day to all teachers! thanks rachel for the present. it`s the thought that counts though. =) i gotta write my teacher`s card and mail it out too. though late, but better than never. =) time flies. it`s true.
hey folks. YF`s back. =) rather mobile these days. work, tuition, recreation. did`nt really feel like blogging while sitting and rotting at home. i feel more like chatting to my friends and perhaps, pigging in bed. sometimes i can`t remember what i did the previous day. life`s pressured. endless loads just keep piling up. but on the other end, i still managed to get some breathing spaces.
sat 260806: went to meet up with delrick to collect the nike mechandises. the baby shoes raymond wanted for his niece are so adorable. the size of my palm. =p and del really knows my taste! got me what i wanted! we went for lunch and had nothing better to do. roamed around aimlessly and in the end decided to jump in for a movie. the timing was bad. only a couple of shows were available. so we watched lovewrecked. well, that show suits del! he knows what i mean ya? to del: think about it seriously. best friends can be together too! =) oOps! go for it! left to meet will for dinner after movie. received a piece of sad news though. =(
sun 270806: went librarying with janice. fetched her from her house beforehand. heard somebody singing qian li zhi wai the minute i entered her house. kekes. and yes!!! i pre-ordered jay chou's 'still fantasy' album. got his limited edition poster this time. missed it when i bought his november`s chopin last year. however, much careless as i am, i almost lost my precious poster at the neo print shop. was super frantic. janice got a shock too i supposed. =X something interesting happened in the library. lazy to blog about the whole incident, unlike janice. interested parties, please refer under my link, to her blog. =) anyways, i thought janice was very happy that day. she got to visit the books in the library, she got to take nice pictures and she got to drink our all time favourite bbt! she made my day too. bringing her out was nice cos she`s a good girl. brought her home after the whole thing and went to meet danica at suntec. main aim was the nike boutique. but too bad, can`t seem to find anything which catches our attention.
nonetheless, took this picture outside suntec with my treasured possession! muacks! can`t wait for 080906!
i`m dozing offwhilst blogging and while missing jay`s unreleased album. back soon i HOPE. miss loads of people now too. xDxD
yes, i`m aware that i`m not blogging on regular days. been such a lazy pig these days. abit of updates here and there in this entry. don`t get bored to death here. =)
16/08: little natalie`s birthday. angela and i rushed over to christopher`s house after work with a birthday cake and nat`s present beautifully boxed up. it was a worthwhile trip especially seeing the joy on nat`s face. kids seldom fail to make my heart gay. =) but nat`s doggy rain rain was abit too over-friendly. that was my main concern through-out the celebration. haha! i can`t believe i was actually a dog-lover when i was very very much younger. -.- by the way, here`re nat`s photos:
her family picture. =) so sweet.
nat herself pinching on her birthday cake. =p
she loves posing. her idea. =X i look so ugly lah! and the blue-black from ice-skating refuses to go still!
me, angela and nat.
our goody bag. credits of nat`s mummy. there are nice candies, biscuits and most alluring of all was the HELLO KITTY handkerchief in the bag. haha! heart it to bits!
18/08: company department gathering at party world chinatown. nothing great in fact. just knew that desmond koh is a good vocalist! wow!
19/09: JB with joseph and 2 dearies. retail therapy worked. LOL! had a great time shopping and singing and eating the k-buffet. whoever wants to go k can ask me along k, though perhaps you people may have to endure my 'sexy' voice. zhutou, update me again k? thanks.
last few days were super tiring. tuition for 4 days in a row! and finally, i`ve tided it over! tomorrow shall pamper myself abit. =) during tuition lesson yesterday, something triggered my heart. thought of sharing with you people. rachel has a cousin ying ying, should be around 4 years old. a bright and cute darling. got to know from rachel`s grandma that her parents were divorced. and yesterday while having tuition with rachel, she came into the room. had a couple of minutes` fun with her. just then, her dad came, in fact wanted to fetch her home. we told her, "ying ying, daddy is here, quick get ready to go home!" and she replied, "i don`t want daddy, i want mummy!" and she refused to go. her mum happened to be in the house and came in to help her get ready to leave. she instantly hugged her mother so tightly and whined, almost in tears that she loves her mummy and don`t want to leave her. this scene made my heart ache so badly. a barely 4-year-old darling knows what`s love, `cos she`s experiencing something not most of us had gone through. i could really see that she could`nt bear to leave her mummy even after her mummy tried to pamper her. =( seriously, enjoy every moment with with your loved ones while you can. parting in some situations is inevitable. at least when that happens, we have memories to hold on to. we don`t bear grudges, we treasure the times together is more important than that childish thought. i`ve already let go more or less. i have my parents and friends who love me so dearly. i will cherish. will you all do the same?
i`m missing them...
time`s not gonna turn back...
i have our puzzle to complete. i`m waiting for you to do that together `cos you`re the only missing piece to make it all complete. =)
tomorrow dad`s fetching me to work and breakfast! suddenly thought of the past days when he used to fetched me to school and breakfast before that at the coffeeshop opp my primary school! time really flies. that was ages back but the memories were still fresh..
to think we still understand each other most after these 2 years. =) who says a guy and a girl cannot be very good friends?
to delrick: do whatever you think you should. don`t let others influence your thoughts, like what i told you over the phone call lst night. wo teng ni!
so weird right? i`m encouraging my ex to go after another lady, which happens to be my friend too! but i feel happy if he`s able to meet his 'one and only' soon. me and him are now purely very good friends. =)
again, i`m lazy to upload pictures. depending on my mood. if i`m hyper i shall do it soon. otherwise.. Zzz...
JB trip with dearies and joseph this saturday! hurray! k and buffet time. i`m really growing sideways and that`s horrifying! hopefully kickbox lessons can help in keeping me in good shape! rather excited about it. can`t wait for september.
wEeex!
there are simply dozens of things i no longer comprehend. i used to believe and trust but apparently i no longer harbour the same thought ever since things began to wreck havoc to my life. i experienced tremendous emotional changes within. to the extent that i`m even foolish enough to want to forsake my life. sometimes it`s rather contradicting. i find myself loved by my close friends but sometimes i feel that i could no longer trust anyone, and that includes myself, and so then, where`s the existence of love? me and you are hypocrites, we all should know that. we say nice things to please the crowd but hidden were uncountables. it`s funny how we homo sapiens behave. it`s getting me more inquisitive.
this world is ugly. without love. but again, with love, will there be no hatred? love bounds to create hatred. we always say "i love you so-and-so" but have we already taken this phrase for granted? and if it`s really love that painted this world colourful, why are there helpless folks out there? are we love-saints or love-insanes till our brains freeze? ponder about this.
i`ve aquired in due course, lessons in life. however, the character`d already been moulded. do we really expect huge changes? come to realise, i`ve learnt lessons, but i`ve still truly yet to apply. who says we can`t look back? if we don`t, how are we gonna learn, let alone apply?
life`s so hysterical.
resurrect the dead in me.
YF`s m.i.s.s.i.n.g.
LONG HU MEN ROCKS BIG BIG TIME. but i can`t see louis koo`s face. =(( i know he plays the bad guy. well, at least let me see his face!!! anyways, went cycling at ECP today. super tired now. gotta turn in early. last night was out to sparkles after tuition. photos as follows.
rebecca's last day in ACE. i love our neo prints. *muacks*
me and angela.
me and pearl.
me with my sparkles. they are beautiful but they don`t last long.
at ECP by the seaside. love the sun, love the nature. love the wind. but my hair was in a mess.
by the way, i signed up for a savings plan today. the advisor deemed himself as the handsome leo guy. -.- ok lahs, he gave me certain benefits so i thought about it and decided upon it fater discussing with mum! =) education fees... haish...
beautiful is your smile
melt the heart of saddness
even the sun got burn by yours pretty smile,
yours eyes is the most beautiful stars,
i ever see
for swear that no shining stone
have a shine like yours.
to my heart that love till now
for swear inside
for i have ever saw a true beauty
till i see you
someone in WLNY started off with a message like that. superb and much different from the other guys who messaged me there. but of course i know that`s flattery. since when i`m so great?
finally met up with qian yesterday. =) great catching up with her. went town and roamed around. saw pearl and her dar. =) so happy to see her smiling again! in the end me and qian went to kovan for some snacks. it was really chilly there. what a chilling experience, got ourselves really chilled.
by the way yesterday`s rebecca's last day. kinda sad. but i did`nt cry. from now on, no one`s gonna cheer me up le. i`m on my own again. me and angela bought her flowers and she`s really touched. =)) hope to see her real soon again. monday no more reports! doing cancellation remarks. think i can knock off rather on time now! =) lazy to post up pictures now. will do it soon. cheerios!
280706 --- after work i met up with danica. went chilling out. my mum saw her at chomp chomp! well at least now she knows who i`m with to get her less worried. me and danica went to ice^3 at serangoon gardens. were sitting in the lounge. rather nice chilling-out-kinda-place. i`d been there a couple of times and tried their ice-creams, but this time i tried their ice blasts. i ordered myself ice blasted coffee blended with baileys. tasted new to my taste buds. danica ordered an ice blasted coffee blended with butterscotch. tasted abit like caramel though. =p we left the place at 1am `cos they`re closed for the day. so we sat outside coffee bean there and had a long chat. realised and discovered alot of things. however a stupid "xiao qiang" scared the wits outta us! so we migrated to mac. saw shirley there and we chatted a little. well, shall meet her up someday! danica`s bf was kind enough to send me home after that. thanks to the both of them. btw, it was already 4am when i stepped into my house! mummy did`nt scold. she understood how i felt inside. from now on, i shall go home earlier and make her less worried. only on fridays and/or saturday shall i indulge myself with loads of fun. =) i shall rest more as well. =)
290706 --- i can`t remember what took place. LOL!
300706 --- i went to pass kor his present at causeway. he knocked some sense into me. thanks kor! anyways kor treated me to Swensens ice-cream. (oh dear! i`m growing sideways!) he helped me to get a balloon dog from the staff there also. here`s the dog:
i`m easily cheered up by small things. =) however the dog had shrunk! lols! actually balloons remind me of something sad but i hope it won`t affect me lots. life still has to go on. after meeting kor, i went party world with my colleagues and angela. just can`t get enough of singing. looking forward to next friday. i`ve applied leave as danica told me that she wants to bring me go ice skate and k. =)) *weets* i miss skating. i bet this time round i can skate alot better? every time i go there it reminds me of especially,the 2nd time i went. i was with my jc classmates. the fall was so bad. =phobia= joseph thought i had a concussion and he lent me his shoulders. LOL! hopefully this time round i won`t fall, fo the 1st time! i side-tracked way too much. alright, i reached home around 9pm. mood suddenly took a turn to the bad side. shan`t mention about it. =((
current --- reb`s leaving. kinda bu she de. but tian xia wu bu shan zhi yan xi right? she`d been a nice friend and colleague. nice to work with. nice to chat to. hopefully everything'll be okay for her back in school next week. =) jiayou! just now was brightened up by her and my rachel. =) rachel is very adorable though sometimes can be quite a trouble to handle. janice is a very nice student who always do her work before i reach her house for tuition. kinda miss her too. =( there are loads of people i`m dying to meet. people like qian and candice, jc friends and a few more. you may be just one of them. i gotta manage my time 1st before i can plan my free time. =) hmmm.. till then... sleepy mode activated...
WAHS LONG ENTRY! YAWNS! *huggles to myself*
p/s: blogger is lousy. can`t post my pictures except for the dog. will try again next time round. ciaos~
as my msn nick goes. ---> merely, solely, totally... thwarted.
regrets... purely regrets.
resentment fills the atmosphere but my mind`s not focus, let alone my heart.
pour mercury into me, stab my heart, cut my throat.
i do not have a problem. you all are the ones.
get it or don`t?